Urgh ... Where is my Willpower?

I seem to have lost every once of willpower this week. I have eaten untold amounts of rubbish including pie and chips, cheeseburger, bourbon pecan pie, monster munch and a cadbury's creme egg PLUS finishing off the best part of a packet of hob nobs and two bottles of wine over the course of the last seven days. It's not looking good for tonight's weigh in and to be honest I don't think I care LOL. That sounds bad doesn't it? I don't mean to sound all deflated I just feel quite comfortable at the moment and all this bloody dieting is SUCH a bore. I look around me and it's not like I'm a great big bloater with seven chins and I know my weight is within the healthy range so really it is only vanity driving me to lose more weight. And to be honest I'm not uncomfortable with how I look so that drive to say no and eat less is kind of missing. What I do feel that I need to do is exercise and I am starting to wonder whether that £17.95 a month I am spending on monthly pass could be better spent on exercise classes and new work out gear. Monday is one of the days when I used to do aerobics ... If I wasn't at weight watchers meetings talking about all the sorts of things I shouldn't be eating and all 'good choices' I could be making it would free me up to do that again some times and allow me to be a bit more flexible with my week. I am paid up until the 1st of March and my direct debit comes out around the middle of the month so I have a week or two to decide whether to cancel but at the moment I'm thinking about going it alone and getting active instead.

Gem x